What Do You Mean There Are Other Transmigrators In My Harem Fantasy? - Chapter 1207

Chapter 1207: Goddess Nilali

Well… If you were to present this question to me now… I wouldn’t even be able to answer it since it’s not like I’m lacking anything at the moment…

And I totally forgot that gods could read my thoughts and only remembered after the goddess herself tilted her head at me.

“You do not have anything you wish for?” She asked, sounding genuinely confused.

I scratched my cheek, “I mean… It’s not like I’m suffering right now or anything… In fact, I feel like there’s a lot of things I have that I don’t deserve.”

“Oh? Now that is certainly rare~ For someone to think that they don’t deserve what they already have, especially coming from an Off-Worlder. Usually Off-Worlders would think that what they are getting is deserved since they did get their World destroyed after all.”

I shook my head, “I’m not that delusional. The fact that we were given a second chance at life and even given cheats to start our new life again is already something that we received as compensation for it. What we achieve after that is completely dependent on us and not something we are owed. It’s not like this World was made specifically for me to live in to begin with. We are basically visitors granted the opportunity to be here.”

“Oh? Hmmm~ That is quite interesting~ So what do you think that you don’t deserve but are in possession of right now?”

“My harem, for one.”

Nilali seemed to stare off into space for a moment before she turned back to me, “Ah. I suppose I understand what you mean. You believe that you are undeserving of the love that you are being shown by your lovers. You do not feel that you should be the recipient of the adoration of multiple lovers who are all willing to share you. You don’t even believe that you are deserving of a single person’s devotion, much less a group of them.”

As expected of a goddess, she knew what my problem was without me needing to explain anything.

I nodded, “They do so much for me and I don’t believe I returned a fraction of their love for me. I fear that they might one day realise that I am not adequate enough for them.”

She leaned forward and lifted a finger, “Ah, ah, Aster. That’s not a good thought to have. That is basically belittling their love for you. They have chosen to devote themselves to you and love you of their own accord. For you to believe that their love is something so fickle is an insult to their love.”

I… Didn’t think of it that way…

She smiled as she undoubtedly read my thoughts for that, “That’s because you feel that love is a transactional thing for you. That there must be a give and take for there to be love. Tell me, Aster, do you love the girls in your harem as well?”

“With all my heart,” I told her honestly.

“And if they were to do nothing but just stay by your side from now on?”

“That’s… Normal? I mean… That’s what I expected from the very start?”

“That’s right. The same goes for them as well, Aster. All they wish is for you to stay with them as well and that is all they ask for. Yet you still go to extra lengths for them all just to make them feel loved, don’t you?”

I scratched my cheek, “I don’t think I’m doing anything special though? They are always the one accommodating me… I suppose one way to put it is that I feel like I am taking advantage of them.”

“And do you think they are taking advantage of your love for them as well?”

“Most definitely not.”

“Then believe their love for you, Aster. I do not know how relationships might be in your World, but in ours, a kiss is sacred and it’s not something that is freely given. Your lovers have given you their kisses and you have given them yours. That is their proof of devotion to you. And you can discard that silly guilt of thinking monogamy is supposed to be the norm, what you have right now is actually the norm instead. I would even say that your harem is being pampered a lot by you.”

I still remain unconvinced about it and I thought that I would just agree with her anyway as a form of lip service but she held up her hand.

“There’s no need to do that, Aster. I suppose you need proof and I am happy to show that proof to you.”

She then snapped her fingers and I found myself standing in a different place, the clouds suddenly disappearing to reveal a field in front of me.

I then noticed that there was another me just standing in the distance and I seemed to be looking at something very intently.

Following her gaze, I realised that the other me was staring at Odeta in the midst of doing her morning exercise routine, my Amrap doing push ups while several heavy boulders were balanced on her back.

That was when I realised that this was a memory of mine where I was admiring her as I accompanied my Amrap on doing her exercise.

Nilali gestured towards me, “What do you see?”

I tilted my head, “Err… Me?”

“I mean the emotions on your face. What do you see yourself projecting as you watch your lover?”

I focused my gaze on my own face and I realised what the goddess was getting at.

I didn’t really pay attention before but I really had a lovestruck expression on my face.

How could I not? My really sexy and lovable Amrap was doing her best to improve herself! She’s working so hard so how could I not be proud of her?

And it really doesn’t help when she’s so hot too…

The moment I had that thought, Nilali snapped her fingers again and the scene changed, this time of me watching Katsuki prepare tea for me.

Even here, I had the same look on my face as well as I admired my personal maid doing the most menial of tasks.

Nilali changed the scene again and memory me was watching Lisa practicing her alchemy, one of those rare moments where she would be focused on something else aside from getting under my skirt. And of course I had the same look of love on my face as I watched her.

Then Nilali snapped her fingers again and it changed to a scene of me enjoying Delmare singing to me right before the scene changed once more to me watching Emilia go through her business plans.

Then it changed one last time to me watching Minnera paint a picture of me.

I didn’t even know I made such a face when I was watching my lovers do all these things…

“Now watch the faces of your lovers here,” Nilali instructed, snapping her fingers once more.

This time the scene showed me munching on some sweets and every single one of my lovers were looking at me with the same look I had when I was watching them.

Just from looking at them, I could feel the pure unadulterated love they had for me just from their gaze alone.

Since I had always been absorbed in eating my sweets, I never actually noticed how they were watching me. Was this just a one time thing? No, that can’t be possible…

I recognised this scene to be a very recent memory since Minnera was there as well which meant they have been doing this for quite a while even before she joined the party.

She snapped her fingers again and I was once again standing in the sea of clouds.

“So what do you think?” She asked.

I paused for a moment before I answered, “They are really serious about me.”

She nodded, “And?”

“And that I should not doubt their love as they love me just as much as I love them.”

She clapped her hands together, “That’s right~ And you know what’s the best thing about this? I even know what you really want now~ so I would be able to fulfil that wish of yours~”

I blinked at her, “Eh? I didn’t even realise that… What do I even want?”

She gestured at herself, “You wish for the solidification of your love so that’s what I can do, Aster~ Allow me to marry you and your harem~”

I needed a moment to register what she just said before I quickly shook my head, “Wait, wait… I don’t want to marry them–”

“Right now, I know,” The goddess interrupted me. “You still wish to make a grand ceremony out of it and you want to finish with your exploration before you decide to take that step. I understand that, Aster. I am merely telling you that when you do wish to marry your lovers, just let me know and I shall be the one who will oversee your marriage ceremony~ I will personally be the one to announce to everyone in attendance that you are married to your lovers.”

“You… Could do that?”

She smiled, “Of course~ I am the Goddess of Love after all~ This is part of my domain~”

Huh… Well, I guess that’s good to know?

Journal Entry:

I actually never noticed the girls looking at me like that while I’m eating sweets…